It seems recently a lot of people are having crisises of fandom. I wonder why people take this all so seriously. After reading Felidae_h's posts and the responses on the Furuba fanfic blog and the innumerable rants against newbie dbz/linkin park AMV creators on the animemusicvideos.org forums I really find myself confused. Why do people care so much when people do something they like badly? The AMV creators rail daily about the awful linkinball Z music videos that clog the database. But is it so hard just not to download or watch them? The fact that creator xyz is making a horrible video doesn't mean that I have to watch it. Nor does it affect the music videos I make in any discernable way. The same goes for fanfiction. There have been a ton of bad Fruits Basket fanfics recently posted to FF.net. I mean really bad. There has been a lot of talk and complaint about it. I really just dont get it. If the story is bad, I don't have to read it. No one is holding a gun to my head. I can happily ignore it and go on with my enjoyment of the series. It also doesn't effect my writing one way or another. Sometimes I feel strange because everyone else seems to be so offended by the newbies and wannabies. Does that mean that I don't like amv's or fruits basket as much as they? If I'm not wrought up about it, does that mean I'm not as emotionly involved as the others? I often feel detatched and confused at the emotions and actions of others. I guess it comes down to the fact that I'm selfish. The things I make, when all is said and done, I make for myself. I write, create music videos, bead, draw, whatever, for my own enjoyment. When it's not fun anymore, I don't do it anymore. Its the creation process that engages me, less then the final product. I guess I just won't ever get how other people's half-assed efforts is supposed to make that less fun... Mmm...bleh...I don't even know what I'm trying to say anymore. This reads like a rant against the people complaining about stuff in their fandom. It's not meant to be. *They* don't bother me anymore than the wannabies and newbies do. I just don't understand them. It's like the sub/dub wars. I just don't get it.

I think I should make some sort of resolution to write in this at least once a week. I'll probably end up writing it in once or twice a month, but if I at least make a point to TRY to write here on a schedule something will come of it. Maybe. LOL, the pressure's on. Mona knows I have a blog now and will be asking for more Furuba fics. (oh wait, she already did!) She's a good motivator though. Knowing someone is waiting really makes me want to write more. It's a nice feeling knowing that people are reading and (hopefully) enjoying what I write. I'm stuck right now on the latest chapter of "A Mystery". I keep wanting to skip ahead, but I've got to lay out the plot more. When I come up with a story I don't have it all solidly in my head, I have "scenes" that come to me almost complete but the rest is all really up in the air. I take those scenes and then figure out how to link them up into a cohesive story. The "linking it up" part is the hard part, I get so excited when I get to one of the scenes I envisioned earlier. Those just fly off the fingertips, so easy, so effortless. I always want to skip over and just write that. But if I do that, then I never go back and write the story inbetween. People really respond to those bits though...whenever I get to those parts I always get the most comments on them. I hope my stories seem cohesive though. I really spend a lot of effort on the "inbetwen bits" to make them seem as well thought out and planned as the scenes that I start out with. I do wish I could come up with a good idea for a non-Yuki/Tooru/Kyou centric fic. I'd love to write about some of the other Juuninshi, or Hana-chan and Uo-chan...heck I think some stories about Tooru's parents would be pretty nifty. But I just can't think of any. Oh well, maybe when I've finished the ones I've been writing so far something will come to me.